Well it has been two years!  And lets just say that I am at the highest weight I have ever been without being Pregnant.  I am absolutely disgusted with myself and unhappy!

I also have had a lot of issues that keep following me around and i need to learn how to let them go and be strong! 

So today I am going to go full steam ahead! I know what works for me and what I need to do! I know it is no ones fault but my own so I have to face the music!

So I am going to continue training my kids for a 5k and my self and my husband! I am also going to try and swim. I have tried before and i just hate putting my face in the water! 

I need to be healthy for me and my family! They need a happy mom! I can't be happy when i am like this! My husband need s happy wife who is happy with herself!
I have a lot of mental baggage to take care of which is a definite factor in my weight loss. I can fall into a mindset of depression pretty quick but because I have kids and have to function on a normal daily schedule i push it away until I am alone.  I have tried therapy and I guess I haven't found the right one yet.
Well no more of this crap! If you have any suggestion on different workouts and or classes! I am open For suggestions!
I love working out and trying new things!
See you next week! Enjoy your weekend!

AROOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOW! That is all I can say! Blue Mountain has a little bit of my sweat and soul left on there and I am coming back to get it back!
That was a hard 8 mile Up Hill Hike! I

Next Spartan!!!

I have been resting this week preparing myself for Saturday, another Spartan. Monday i walk 1.7 miles and then walk/ran with the kids another 1.5 miles. Tuesday did my workout that i have been doing in the house that my trainer gave me. And now we rest!  This one is only 4.5 miles. So it shouldn't take us 6 hours and if it does then that means one of us got hurt and the other 2 are carry them down the mountain!
I am still nervous and I will be no matter what I just hope I feel as good as I did for the super once I started!
I know that I am packing a small can or bottle of Coke for Kelly's stomach. I have extra Gu which was great for some extra energy when I needed it!
What I am really excited about is when My Middle daughter found out that I was going to go back and do another run she asked right away if she could go and do another kids run. And that My oldest daughter also wants to do the kids run too! My younger daughter said that she would say with my older(who has special needs) and help her through the course. They do have a special spartan race for kids with special needs but I think she can do the regular kids race as long as her sister is with her.
I have been thinking all week about my weight loss(NOT) and getting stronger.  My biggest problem is eating the right food and eating too much.  I don't eat too much I think I don't eat enough. I hate eating breakfast! But I have been forcing myself to this past week.  I don't like to eat when I am not hungry! So starting next week I am going to be on a strict eating plan....I have 35 pounds to lose! I want to be able to be stronger then I am now and   climb across the monkey bars and pull myself up the rope! And do an unassisted pull up! HA HA! Now that is asking a lot. But I do want to get stronger and lose the extra weight!
Time to get the kids to the pool! Rest Rest before another mountain climb!

BlueMountain spartan race

 I ran the blue Mountain spartan race. It was very hard and very challenging it was a little over 8 miles with 32 obstacles. A lot of things going through your head when you're being challenged physically that it turns into a mental challenge also. before we started the race on our way there in the car I thought I was going to throw up. I never thought I would feel that nervous in my entire life.  I thought for sure that I would hold back my friends or end up getting hurt because I wasn't prepared.  Once we started going the nerves settled into excitement and I felt good.  I've heard people tell me that I'm too old or at least asked me aren't you too old to be doing this stuff. But I saw people on the course a lot older than me. When anyone says anything like that it's motivation for me to prove them wrong in. My daughters been through 14 brain surgeries my godsons a Double amputee they're never going to give up neither am I. I want to set a good example for my kids the being healthy is fun being healthy is a challenge sometimes but never give up keep on pushing no matter what.  

My middle child my daughter run the kids spartan race they bought eat her up with an older girl just said she had someone on the course with her which I thought was great. And when I I finished the race I ran over to the kids race to make sure I can see her since I thought she was going off at 2:30 but instead she went off at two. just missed her going off but I got to see her coming around the one corner and over the wall and the look on her face when she saw me she was soexcited and I was so proud. Later on that day I heard her saying how her mom climbs up on mountain and did obstacles and it was 8 miles. Made me feel good that my daughter was so proud of me. 

So my friend that run with me and her nerves got the best of her for the first 4 miles. She felt that she was done she thought she was holding us back but I never leave anyone behind and if you need help I'll help. But I know how she is and I knew she was at that point where she just need to be left alone.  She told us to keep going she would meet us at the bomb. It took everything in me to keep going I felt so bad I didn't like leaving her but I know it was for the best for her so she could get through it. I was hoping that she sat there for a little bit that you feel OK to continue and she did. I was so proud when I saw her walk

towards us with her metal. And I joked with her saying thank God you finish because now I don't have to do another super again.  But I know if she didn't finish but we would be finding another super and I would be running it with her because there's no way I would let her do it by herself and. And not not to mention as crazy tiring and hard that that was I would so do it again because in some weird little spot in my head I had fun. I had fun challenging myself next super gonna push myself even harder.  I'm going to be in better shape. I want to be able to do all the obstacles and only do the burpees  if I fall. I don't want to Burpee out of any obstacles because I feel like I can't do them. I know if Kelly was with me she would've made me try them on and sometimes I need that extra push. 

So what did I learn this weekend. I learned that I can do more than I think I can,my kids are proud of me,my best friend overcame one of the biggest obstacles to her because she's very strong, stronger than she thinks.  And I'm never too old to challenge myself. I will continue to challenge myself until I no longer can psychically do it! 

My goal is to do more and do better then Saturday! 

Sorry for any lack of punctuation. I did this through voice to text 

MOre training!!

From my last post I have been training every day. We went to spring mountain for a run and carries.
that was actually fun to do especially in the rain.
We ran on a trail in the woods and then after that we carried a bucket of rocks sandbags and water jugs up the hill. THEN we ran/walked up this giant hill that our instructor told us is what the Beast will be like the whole up hill! I was like WOW!!! I would love to go back there every week and practice that hill! I think after the Super and Sprint I will go there as much as I can to run it! I would like to be able to run up that entire hill.
I got the rope and Hung it up! Doing some exercises on the rope every day!
Yesterday we took the kids to Peace Valley and rented a paddle boat for an hour.....whew that was tiring on my legs. I was tired from the workout but my legs feel good today!
Going to do the workout that our trainer gave us.....

 Running (or walk/run) 2-3 times a week

30 Burpees per day

Strength 

10 - Pull-ups (jumping, assist, or inverted rows),

 Lunges -10 each leg, 

10 Dips, 

10 Push-ups (do on knees if you cannot get chest close to ground), 

10 Knees to Elbows (hanging from a pull up bar, pull knees to elbows), 

Ground touches (10 on each leg) standing on 1 leg  and if you can find something to step up on or box jump - 10 Box jumps or Box Step-ups (10 each leg).  

Do 3-5 sets of this series of exercises with 1-2 min break in between each set.

Now I am looking for a pull up bar to use! LOL!

Off to workout and garden and do hair today! Then off to work tonight!

ROPE!!!

Lots of women like shopping for clothes and shoes! Now don't get me wrong I like to shop for a good pair of shoes now and then.....BUTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just ordered a rope...yes a rope! One that we are going to tie up in a tree and climb! I cant wait for it to come in! It is a very strange thing to be excited about but now I can learn adn practive climbing a rope!  I am also going to ask a friend of mine for a tractor tire to flip....
Oh the things I look forward to now that i am training for an OCR! The bonus is that the kids will love to climb the rope and help them workout too!
They are all going to do a spartan race at some point...my oldest did hers last year along with my middle. And my son is too young just yet!
My 7year old is so excited to do them, she told me the other day that she has to run in order to get ready for 3 spartan races, down and dirty, a color run and the ugly sweater run at the end of the year! Love that she is planning out her runs for the year!
Well off to get some housework done, kids journal entry done, and maybe take Marissa out for a run!
Too nice of a day to stay inside!

More Training!

Good Morning!!!!
June 23, 2015

Last night we had another Class at Urban Fit! It was hot, tough and fun at the same time!
I have 2 bruises and that is just from climbing the walls!
I really am enjoying the classes though! I like pushing myself and feeling the burn the next day!

Today I practiced my swimming at the pool. I did one lap and then some drills back and forth for about 10 mins. They pool we go to has a 15 min adult swim every hour so anytime we are there I will practice.
Work tonight! FUN!